I woke up today after a three days at Rockbridge for Assignment Team Training and realized my deep burden for girls. I LOVE high school girls but sometimes I get so wrapped up in them liking me, and becoming a "buddy leader" that I forget that they don't need me they need a savior, praise God that savior is not me because lets be honest I am a hot mess...
I got a text on the way home yesterday from a girl who gave me her deposit for summer camp in December... she wanted it back... and it broke my heart. She hasn't been coming to things, she has been working a lot and told me she couldn't ask off work... my prideful self went "camp is in July, its March you can ask off work" but instead the Lord called me to pray, pray hard for her, and pray hard for girls who I NEVER think would come to camp would come. I have 4 girls coming out of about 12 right now whom I am deathly afraid of and I want more of those girls... so I beg for you to join me in this time of prayer.
pray for Kendall, Megan, Mariah, Bailey- these girls are seriously petrifying I want walls to be broken down.
pray that these girls by the grace of our sweet savior that they would want to experience a week away this summer:
Morgan
Brooke
Bridgette
Rachel
Jacki
Zoe
Taylor
Sydney
Ally
I will probably be asking for so much more prayer over these next few months about girls because I cannot imagine these girls walking around dead any longer without knowing there is something so much better in store for them.
Friday, March 18, 2011
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
When The Saints- Sara Groves
"Lord I have a heavy burden of all I've seen and know
It's more than I can handle
But your word is burning like a fire shut up in my bones
and I cannot let it go
And when I'm weary and overwrought
with so many battles left unfought
I think of Paul and Silas in the prison yard
I hear their song of freedom rising to the stars
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them."
This song was one that my good friend Julie played when I was working at Rockbridge this summer and I absolutely fell in love with it. It wasn't until recently that I really listened to the lyrics and today they just resonated with me, so if you get a chance listen to it.
My heart has become weary and overwrought and I realize it is because I am feeling the burden of so many girls left unloved and without the truth of Christ... including girls I "minister" to right now. I put minister in quotations because I have been deeply convicted of how rarely I put girls that I love at a crossroad for the Lord because of a fear of rejection. I have been praying that the Lord would show me why I can't do it why I get so scared why I trip on my words and don't say what I want to and I feel as though He has been sweetly whispering to me that I don't trust HIm with everything that I focus too much on the ins and outs of ministry and less on Him... wow. I am blown away by the truth of this and that He would show this to me now... but it is sweet and good and I'm learning and trusting and bringing this all to HIm daily. For now I want to be bold I want to think of Silas in the prison yard... I want the word of the Lord to be deep set in my bones so for now that is my sweet solemn prayer.
Just some things I am learning that I wanted to share!
It's more than I can handle
But your word is burning like a fire shut up in my bones
and I cannot let it go
And when I'm weary and overwrought
with so many battles left unfought
I think of Paul and Silas in the prison yard
I hear their song of freedom rising to the stars
And when the Saints go marching in
I want to be one of them."
This song was one that my good friend Julie played when I was working at Rockbridge this summer and I absolutely fell in love with it. It wasn't until recently that I really listened to the lyrics and today they just resonated with me, so if you get a chance listen to it.
My heart has become weary and overwrought and I realize it is because I am feeling the burden of so many girls left unloved and without the truth of Christ... including girls I "minister" to right now. I put minister in quotations because I have been deeply convicted of how rarely I put girls that I love at a crossroad for the Lord because of a fear of rejection. I have been praying that the Lord would show me why I can't do it why I get so scared why I trip on my words and don't say what I want to and I feel as though He has been sweetly whispering to me that I don't trust HIm with everything that I focus too much on the ins and outs of ministry and less on Him... wow. I am blown away by the truth of this and that He would show this to me now... but it is sweet and good and I'm learning and trusting and bringing this all to HIm daily. For now I want to be bold I want to think of Silas in the prison yard... I want the word of the Lord to be deep set in my bones so for now that is my sweet solemn prayer.
Just some things I am learning that I wanted to share!
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